like i know only.

dew.

it's important for those survivor who lost in the jungle/forest.

they depend on it(just like water)for survival besides food.

they have to collect before sun evaporate them.

and they have to conserve for the next 24 hours till they collect another round.

they have to drink bit by bit through out the day and make full use of it.

without it,they will die of dehydration.

but when rescue came for them,

they actually forget about the deeds and don't appreciate a single bit that the dew had done for them

the sun,is the enemy of the dew which evaporate them.

the dew,is the love ones for the survivor.

the survivor,is the one who don't appreciate it when rescue came.

i'm just like the dew.

when someone needs me,they find me.

and when another person come to their life,

they totally forget about me and lead a happy life.

they don't know how much effort i put on them

and none of my deeds they actually appreciate.

oh yeah,

i'm sure assuming things isn't wrong.

im sure expecting things isn't wrong either.

so don't blame me if i assume or expect things,

because it's normal for us,

human,

to expect and assume things.

what would you do when things don't go to your way and it feels like the world is going against you? what would you do when you feel tired of doing something but you just can't stop and you've to carry on with it? what would you do when everyone in the world claims that they understand how you feel but actually they don't really give a flying fuck about you, they don't understand a single shit and they just say ok to everything you say? what would you do when you feel like things are changing , the people around you, the environment and even yourself but you can't do a shit to make things the same? what would you do when you miss something/someone you know you can never get back with but it constantly haunting you. tell me, what would you do?

if only i have the courage to say it to you myself.

beauty is what i see when i look at you.

in your words,

there is beauty.

and in your actions,

it is there too.

maybe beauty is not what you would like to hear

but it is in every part of you.

i'm not a saint,

and neither are you.

she makes me feel like it's raining outside.

and when the storm's gone,

i'm all torn up inside.

i'm always nervous on days like this,

i get to scared to move cause i'm a fcuking boy.

i would wish upon a star.

but that star,

it doesn't shine.

so read my book with a boring ending,

a short story of a lonely guy,

who fell behind

maybe i know, somewhere deep in my soul

that love never lasts

and we've got to find other ways to make it alone

or keep it straight face

and i've always lived like this.

keeping a comfortable distance and up until now,

i had sworn to myself that's i'm content with loneliness

because none of it was ever worth the risk.

think of me when you're out?

not possible.

when you're out there and i'll beg you from my knees?

it's possible.

i shouldn't have said hi to you.

i shouldn't have see you.

i shouldn't give you my words.

i shouldn't make myself trust your words.

and now,

i'm left with nothing.

nothing but pain

and misery.

i'm through

after so long,now it's the right time for me to be bad boy because i can no longer take this attitude of mine anymore.

isn't that cool?

she looks at me,

i fake a smile so she won't see that i want and i'm needing everything that we should be.

i'll be he's handsome/cute, that guy he talks about

and he's got everything that i have to live without.

she talks to me,

i laugh cause it's just so damn funny that i can't even see anyone when she's with me.

she says she's so in love, she's finally got it right,

i wonder if she knows she's all i think about at night.

she walks by me,

can she tell that i can't breathe?

and there she goes, so perfectly,

the kind of flawless i wish i could be.

he'd better hold her tight, give her all his love.

look in those beautiful eyes and know he's lucky one.

:')

'500 days of summer'

really resemble of my life.

i know my mistake,

but will she ever know her mistake?

thanks because this sucky feeling come to haunt me again.

can we talk?

so confused, it's like I'm lost.

what went wrong?

what made you go?

don't pretend you don't know.

this is me,unchangeable.

when did we fall apart?

or did you lie from the start?

when you said it's only you.

i was blind, such a fool.

thinking we were unbreakable.

I've been told what's done is done.

to let it go and carry on.

and deep inside i know it's true.

I'm stuck on time, stuck on you.

we were still untouchable.

wake up!

cause I'm only dreaming.

get out!

get out my head now.

because we're much better all together

but can't let go.

it was you and me against the world.

and you promised me forever more.

was is something that i said?

was it something that i did?

cause i got to know what made me unbeautiful.

i feel like nowadays girls should be judging guys on their personality instead on their image.

some people make promise as though they gonna hold that promise but eventually they didnt so don't make any promises when you cant hold that promise god dammit

and

dont give people too much hope because the person that they gave to gonna hurt at some point of time and im sure everybody know what it feels like when someone give too much hope and end up break our heart and live us all alone

ive gone through that and i super dont like it and i wish and i hope she realise it because she too dont like when someone she hoping to get back to at the end the guy gonna give some stupid reasons

fuck and dump

the last time i fall in love' was last two week and now i miss falling in love' again because i didnt went for any event hahah

i wonder how shes doing right now because all a sudden i think of her and the past that we overcome/shared together keeps coming back non stop

i can no longer take this anymore i had enough of this crap and bullshit stuffs that keeps happening to me and i think ecstasy can help me get rid of this pain that ive been facing alone all this while

left without any trace

she makes me feel like it's raining outside.

and when the storm's gone,

i'm all torn up inside.

i'm always nervous on days like this,

i get to scared to move cause i'm a fcuking boy.

i would wish upon a star.

but that star,

it doesn't shine.

so read my book with a boring ending,

a short story of a lonely guy,

who fell behind.

i'm one worthless piece of shit who keep waiting and wondering and hoping for people to cling on me when i know that she won't even think of clinging on me.

ulcer on your dick dammit!

i'm sorry for everything i did in the past.
yes i admit i was really really wrong and stone head and king of ego.
i'm sorry to whom it may concern.
because this few days,
i've have an uneasy feeling.
am i ok?
am i sick?
am i retarded?
out of no reason,
i had this uneasy feeling.
i'm sorry if i cheat.
i'm sorry if i toy.
i'm sorry if i sweet talk.
but i guess,
it's time for me to turn a new leaf,
i assume?
if weather change,
why can't we?
i'm really really really sorry x9873246.

my life getting more pathetic and miserable each day.
the cause of it,
i have no idea what is it,
but then i have the feeling & thought that,
the people that i friends with,the one that i used to close with,
hating me each second.
is it my ego,
or is it truth?
somethings can't explain,
i wish i could have the explanation & solution to the thoughts & feelings i have.
but it seems that no matter how hard i try to overcome it,
i fail.

hardest part of walking away from you,
is knowing that you will never run after me.
that's the most difficult task im going to do
because eventually i will keeping stalking her from behind.
and i fucking hate myself
and thats why people hate my fucking attitude.
oh great.