death awaits me

i can no longer take it anymore.
my songs,
make my bloody body move,shake ,drop.
like fishcake stick man!
haven't 18,
i'm like this.
and when i'm 18?
die man.
i try to control myself,
but i can't.
what should i do?
meditate?
suicide?
dig nose?
walao!
fuck lah!