expecting...
expected.
it do happen.
smile/laugh best cure?
i don't think so.
at times,ego-ness can be good.
at times,it can be bad.
but have to say,
it's real good.

don't learn from our mistakes.
most say,"i won't repeat as i learn my mistakes."
bull shit.
told my self that i won't repeat the same mistakes.
but i did.
it's hard to hold words.
and to hold someone's word?
try practicing holding water first.

trust,
faith,
give and take,
that's what we need in life.

too much hope,hurt our own very heart.
too less hope,playing with people's heart.
think before we do something.

i rather dig people's nose with my bare fingers than staying at home.
gosh!
ugh!
and yes,
i really miss her.
why i miss her?
i ask you first,
why you hungry?
there's no word to describe how much i miss her.
:)

do I have a girlfriend?
technically no.
and if you be my girlfriend
then i'll make it so.
you'll be my only true lover.
no competition,
no other.
it's just the thrill of the chase
and i got a feeling
that i'm winning this race.
if only i get the permission so.

sometimes i wonder,
why i have to live?
why i was born?
how this world created?
why people walk instead of flying?
this kind of question
makes me feel so stupid.
why in the world i think of this?
so tak de link lah.

received letter from nyp.
don't understand a single bit to the maximum.
read and read and read
till i remember what's the next sentence is.
D7 do really suits me.
high self esteem!
=)

am i sick,
or other's are?
been spotting couples kissing here and there.
not to say privately,
but un-privately.
get a life.
get a room.
satisfy your needs.
dumbwitt couples.

lately,
my heart is two sided.
no idea why.
but it's just reacted itself.
just like sodium hydroxide(NaOH) and magnesium ribbon.

:S

monkey bar mood.
if bother,ask.
if don't,don't.
i happy,you happy.
you not happy,go dig your nose.

manager,like fuck.
people never come,never tell me.
make me wait like one lamp post.
work for free?
wait long long.
never get paid,i'll confront like there's no tomorrow.
fired me?
try me.
i'll be the one smiling all day long.

the person you're not close with,
will be the person you need most one day.
so,i hope they open their god damn blardy eyes and see what's beneath them.
hate me?
gossip about me?
go ahead.
no one stopping you.

short and simple,
i love her.
:D

every little thing I do
i think it never seems enough for you
You don't want to lose it again
but don't worry,
I'm not like them
when you finally,
get to love somebody
guess what,
it's gonna be me. =)

and when the visions around you,
bring tears to your eyes
and all that surround you,
are secrets and lies
i'll be your strength,
i'll give you hope,
keeping your faith when it's gone
the one you should call,
was standing here all along.( who else would be standing if it's not me? ;) )

and I will take
you in my arms
and hold you right where you belong (under my armpit i suppose? =D )
till the day my life is through
this I what i promised you

i've fall for you when i first talk with you
in lifetimes before,
i promise you,
will you hurt anymore
i give you my word
i give you my heart
this is a battle i've been trying to win
and with this vow i have,
forever has now begun

this i promise you
and i'll proof to you that guys can be trusted.
including me.
i've made my stance
that i'll try to be there when you're in need.
i'll be your eyes,
i'll be your ears.

=)

it takes a alot of thoughts to make a word.it takes more than some words to make an action.
just like action speaks louder than words.
if mean it,make sure mean it.
don't take words for granted as this little words which is nothing for you might be the key to hurt someone and make a small matter be a big matter.
i've learnt mine.
and i don't want to do it twice.

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

problems after problems.
nothing would be possible if there's no problems in our lives.
and sadly,my dear friend,andy,even though i'm not close with you, i'm really sad to not be a friend with you.now that you have leave your love ones,i've learnt my lesson.R.E.P my dear friend,andy.
is this what god gave to us?
i do think friend do come and go where others might say the other way round.
we don't live forever.
one day,just one day,our love one might be leaving us even though we don't get enough of our love one.
it's all about treasure.
we do not remember days...
we remember moments.
day is the repeat telecast of every week.
we can have tuesday in this week and next week and so on and so forth.
but moments,we can't have the exact same thing happen for the second time.
now i do understand that friends do come and go.

things happen.
sometimes good,sometimes bad
but we have to face the fact
and now i have too.
just have faith and time will tell

valentine's day.it was hell yet i still enjoy it.
2 were drunk and 1 really in 'marine parade'.
lucky my love one and a friend not drunk.
so we have to take care the 3 of them.
especially the 'marine parade',extra care needed.
=)

ok,HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
and yes,later i'm going out.
oh yessssssss mann!
recently,no new pictures.
will upload once i have worcxxcz
HAHAHAHA!
=)

from now on,i really need to use my brain before i do something stupid which can make me regret for a life time. think smart,act smart.

oh gosh,am i the only one who's getting weirder or the whole world is?
i was randomly finding for t.i. music video,whatever you like,i came across this video by barrack obama(current president of USA) title what ever i like.hah!i wonder why they use obama part of this song.they really detest him or they just plain bored and make such thing just because his black?question mark still lingering in my mind -.-

got this from a friend of mine and it really made me speechless.

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little b oy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put h is arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives..

all this time,my parent's word are really true.
how i wish i could just turn back time and fixed my past.
:S