maybe i know, somewhere deep in my soul

that love never lasts

and we've got to find other ways to make it alone

or keep it straight face

and i've always lived like this.

keeping a comfortable distance and up until now,

i had sworn to myself that's i'm content with loneliness

because none of it was ever worth the risk.

think of me when you're out?

not possible.

when you're out there and i'll beg you from my knees?

it's possible.

i shouldn't have said hi to you.

i shouldn't have see you.

i shouldn't give you my words.

i shouldn't make myself trust your words.

and now,

i'm left with nothing.

nothing but pain

and misery.

i'm through

after so long,now it's the right time for me to be bad boy because i can no longer take this attitude of mine anymore.

isn't that cool?

she looks at me,

i fake a smile so she won't see that i want and i'm needing everything that we should be.

i'll be he's handsome/cute, that guy he talks about

and he's got everything that i have to live without.

she talks to me,

i laugh cause it's just so damn funny that i can't even see anyone when she's with me.

she says she's so in love, she's finally got it right,

i wonder if she knows she's all i think about at night.

she walks by me,

can she tell that i can't breathe?

and there she goes, so perfectly,

the kind of flawless i wish i could be.

he'd better hold her tight, give her all his love.

look in those beautiful eyes and know he's lucky one.

:')

'500 days of summer'

really resemble of my life.

i know my mistake,

but will she ever know her mistake?

thanks because this sucky feeling come to haunt me again.