can we talk?

so confused, it's like I'm lost.

what went wrong?

what made you go?

don't pretend you don't know.

this is me,unchangeable.

when did we fall apart?

or did you lie from the start?

when you said it's only you.

i was blind, such a fool.

thinking we were unbreakable.

I've been told what's done is done.

to let it go and carry on.

and deep inside i know it's true.

I'm stuck on time, stuck on you.

we were still untouchable.

wake up!

cause I'm only dreaming.

get out!

get out my head now.

because we're much better all together

but can't let go.

it was you and me against the world.

and you promised me forever more.

was is something that i said?

was it something that i did?

cause i got to know what made me unbeautiful.

i feel like nowadays girls should be judging guys on their personality instead on their image.

some people make promise as though they gonna hold that promise but eventually they didnt so don't make any promises when you cant hold that promise god dammit

and

dont give people too much hope because the person that they gave to gonna hurt at some point of time and im sure everybody know what it feels like when someone give too much hope and end up break our heart and live us all alone

ive gone through that and i super dont like it and i wish and i hope she realise it because she too dont like when someone she hoping to get back to at the end the guy gonna give some stupid reasons

fuck and dump

the last time i fall in love' was last two week and now i miss falling in love' again because i didnt went for any event hahah

i wonder how shes doing right now because all a sudden i think of her and the past that we overcome/shared together keeps coming back non stop

i can no longer take this anymore i had enough of this crap and bullshit stuffs that keeps happening to me and i think ecstasy can help me get rid of this pain that ive been facing alone all this while

left without any trace

she makes me feel like it's raining outside.

and when the storm's gone,

i'm all torn up inside.

i'm always nervous on days like this,

i get to scared to move cause i'm a fcuking boy.

i would wish upon a star.

but that star,

it doesn't shine.

so read my book with a boring ending,

a short story of a lonely guy,

who fell behind.

i'm one worthless piece of shit who keep waiting and wondering and hoping for people to cling on me when i know that she won't even think of clinging on me.

ulcer on your dick dammit!

i'm sorry for everything i did in the past.
yes i admit i was really really wrong and stone head and king of ego.
i'm sorry to whom it may concern.
because this few days,
i've have an uneasy feeling.
am i ok?
am i sick?
am i retarded?
out of no reason,
i had this uneasy feeling.
i'm sorry if i cheat.
i'm sorry if i toy.
i'm sorry if i sweet talk.
but i guess,
it's time for me to turn a new leaf,
i assume?
if weather change,
why can't we?
i'm really really really sorry x9873246.

my life getting more pathetic and miserable each day.
the cause of it,
i have no idea what is it,
but then i have the feeling & thought that,
the people that i friends with,the one that i used to close with,
hating me each second.
is it my ego,
or is it truth?
somethings can't explain,
i wish i could have the explanation & solution to the thoughts & feelings i have.
but it seems that no matter how hard i try to overcome it,
i fail.

hardest part of walking away from you,
is knowing that you will never run after me.
that's the most difficult task im going to do
because eventually i will keeping stalking her from behind.
and i fucking hate myself
and thats why people hate my fucking attitude.
oh great.

everyday routine

everyday i will go to her blog and hoping she would changed her mind but till now theres no sign of her changing her mind and i feel so stupid hoping for it to occurred when part of me know that it wont happen and that is super suck i tell you readers

it will never end

i cant wait for tuesday because im going to enjoy the night like nobody elses problem because im sick & tired of people treating me like a piece of shit when i treat them like one king/queen and its not fair for me because other of my friends were treated nicely eventhough they treat their friends like one pathetic asshole and im super upset ok ok bye world.

thanks for using me YET AGAIN

super pissed!not the first,not the second.so much for staying at home and the truth.nbcb!thank you for lying to me you dumbwitt asshole.i think i deserve this shit again and again because my face got write use me right.i know.keep it up with the hardwork k.

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1st day,was bored like mad and hell and anything that can desrcibe the boredom but after that was fun.

2nd day,was late and spent 24BUCKS for my cab fair.asshole!

3rd day,late AGAIN and spent 18 BUCKS for my cab fair.asshole!

nbcb!

cursed whoever fault it was!

great thinking/imagination from me and hans.

and we do actually agree that love's like shampoo.

everyone need the right shampoo for their hair.

they can't just use anykind of shampoo available on the mama shop' shelves.

just like,

love.

hah!

i hate myself right now till forever because basically i suck to the max!

i havent got a clue

now i feel really lonely and i would love someone to ask me for 'play-play' date every thrice a week and the rest of my life if possible and then eventually from the 'play-play' liking will then be converted to the real,deep,intense, love.but then it wont happen because i know that i'm not capable of doing that and i know that i dont have the charisma to do that.i dont know why,but today,all a sudden,this feeling shot right through my body and i feeeeeeeel soooooo weak and sad and hopeless.